Archive for December, 2006


Thanks for listening to me. I just needed someone to talk too. Is seems like everyone here does not care. Your a good dad and a good husband. Keep up the good work, but please don’t forget about your family. Nicole, Thank you for taking good care of my son. Never give up and always listen & try to understand him. Love him to the end. I love all of you very much. Take care of dad.

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Get to a doctor and find out what is going on with you. Don’t stop tell you have the answer. I love you Mandy. Please think of other people’s feelings too. Sometimes you act like you just don’t care and you slam the door on me.  You remember I love you with all my heart.

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I do not know why you hate me so much. I feel like you dont give a shit about anyone but you and Amanda. One day you will know what it feels like to have your heart killed. Good luck in your life. I do love you so very much but I cant take the pain NO MORE.

You know your children needs you. They need a lot of time. Its not a part time job, it is a full time job for the rest of your life. Remember that. Joshua, I love you, please look at what your doing. Take a good look at your life. Are you happy?

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WAKE UP… YOU KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT. PLEASE, WAKE UP. You are good at anything you set your mind to. You put everything into it. I love you Mike with all my heart. Never give up. Your daughter needs  and loves you too. She can never take that away from you.

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Yesterday @ 11:00 am she went to the Navy hospital. The doctor put her in ICU. She is not doing so well. Her Blood is 90/40 Her 02 is 80 her heart rate is 135. The fuild in her left lung is going into her stomach. They are checking her for ammonia and meningitis. She is in a lot of pain and she is always screaming with pain. Oh my God please dont take her from me. Cure her PLEASE, Don’t take her, take me. I will follow you if you cure her LORD. WHERE ARE YOU? ARE YOU NOT LISTENING? DO YOU NOT CARE? SHE IS SO YOUNG STILL AND FIGHTING SO HARD TO LIVE. PLEASE LORD, YOU TOOK LAURA ALREADY. IF YOU WANT ANOTHER ONE FROM MY FAMILY, TAKE ME, NOT HER. I AM READY…. I AM ALREADY DEAD ANYWAY. DO YOU NOT HEAR ME?????? TAKE ME NOT HER.
When your parents die, it is said you lose your past; when your spouse dies, you lose your present; and when your child dies, you lose your future. However, when your sibling dies, you lose a part of your past, present, and your future. You loose so much. I can not bare it no more.

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The Auayan family: My Honey, David, David jr., Nicole, Nic, Lorelai, Joshua, Alicia, Baby Joshua, Halena, Amanda, Michael, Neer’s, Mandy & Jason and my mom, Renee, Teresa, BATACAN family: Deedee, Glenn, Jeremy; PATOLOT family: Jun, Patty, Tina, Lisa, Baily, Mason; SMITH Family: Greg, Denise, the two boys, Laura Klyn; BEUKES/OLALIA family, Shawna, Brad, Branden, Brian, Daniel, Caleb, Josiah, Brittany, baby boy and the WEST Family: Kip, Myrna, Chris, Carson

Kristy, Jason baby boy and Kim

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Happy early birthday my LOVE!

It’s Jason’s birthday tomorrow. He’s so old. *Giggles* But I’ve already spoiled it and gave him his presents like, 6 days early. I suck, and I couldn’t help myself. Oh well though. He needed it though, I got him a new jacket. It’s a cool one! It’s like 3 jackets in 1. I wanted him to be warm, and then I got him a new wallet. His old one was broken. :0 I did get him some other stuff… small stuff, and then just tonight I had to get him more stuff, but they’re secrets for now.

Work has been horrible for me. The work is easy yes, but I’m just not healthy enough to do it. I get horrible back pains where I even start crying in front of customers, and I keep getting really dizzy and I accually threw up today. Not to mention I passed out too. I hate it. I hate feeling like this all the time.

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Wow, look what my daughter did for my web page. I really love the FAMILY picture. Thank you so much, Mandy. You did a good job. Thank you….. but could you fix my links. One for Laura and one for cancer. They are not working. Thanks again.

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